“My life in pictures.”
I happened on that catchy hashtag while browsing Instagram one night, and now I always use it because it’s kind of perfect.
There are many days that feel blurred together, so many conversations, responsibilities, and interactions. (I called to make an appointment for one child today and when they asked me for the birth date… my mind went totally blank. He’s my kid, I promise. I just have no idea when he was born. #oops. #truestory)
These days start early and end late and are filled to the brim of non-stop needs and to-dos. Every now and then I wonder if I’m still going to be me when this season is over or if I will be forever lost in the beauty and struggle of motherhood.
I sit in groups and see people easily conversing, but my eyes are always darting around the room, my ears are always halfway open to the sounds of my own children in the crowd.
Mothering never turns off. There is no “clock in/clock out” for this job. The community in my life has grown larger, as I more deeply appreciate the loving “village” of fellow parents around me. Women (and men!) who are focused and united in love not judgement; compassion, not pride; and understanding, not criticism. People who lift up.
The depth and the rich love of marriage has taken on a whole new meaning. There are days when I am humbled by the gentle example of loyalty and love in my husband. There are days we look at each other across the table of giggling, shrieking children and think, “Are we crazy?!?!” (We know – some of you have thought that about us, too!! Haha 😘) There are those little pockets of time when we are alone, no little hands tugging or voices questioning, and we can remember all that is beautiful about the US, separate from them.
In the quiet of the night, I look at all the faces, all the memories, all the little pieces of my life in pictures, and I realize… it is good.
It is everything I imagined – more.
And it is full of love.
PS. Speaking of pictures, if you’re interested in an up-close-and-personal view 😉, these days I post more frequently on Facebook and Instagram, so hop on over and join there, too!! Xoxo